Promises for the Hungry Heart - Week 17 (Update)
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It was another week when I needed no time to decide. The promise I chose is a verse that brings me such comfort. It lifts me up when times are troubled. The verse I chose this week is...
My Spirit is bringing your unsaid prayers before My Father for you. Romans 8:26
Have you ever experienced that heartbreaking moment when you receive news that brings you to your knees? You are too weak to stand and everything in you simply shatters? You want to cry out to God, you ache to say something, to plead for answers and solutions but you can't form a single thought? This promise is for you.
I remember those moments.
I remember seeing the blood just two days after seeing the two lines. I remember getting into the shower and just sobbing until the tears couldn't come anymore. Wanting to pray and form words to ask God, "why?" To understand the purpose of the pain and anguish of loss.
I remember just a few months later going to an eight week appointment. The nurse practitioner put the ultrasound wand on my abdomen and I could tell on her face that something wasn't right. She said she was having trouble picking up the heartbeat. I had seen healthy heartbeats before. I had seen them flickering on these machines before. There was no flickering. There was no movement at all.
I know she told me where to go to get a better ultrasound and I know I found my way there. I know I called Micah and tried to explain what was happening. I know I sat in that dark room alone while I waited for them to tell me what I already knew. Another baby was gone.
Once again I found myself without words. Without the ability to cry out to God or to ask for help when I was hurting so deeply, when Micah was hurting along side me. We cried together because there were no words to make either of us feel okay.
But the Spirit moved for us. It moved for me. The Spirit of God interceded and prayed the words I couldn't. Sooner than I could have ever expected I started feeling a sense of peace. In just a matter of days I was already sharing with other people about what I was experiencing. I was still living it, losing another baby, but I was talking. I was sharing and connecting. And that is what I needed.
My heart has always longed to connect with others. To help and encourage other people. It's one of the many reasons I went to school to become a teacher. I have a deep love for learning and wanted to pass on that love to others. I wanted them to find something they loved and connected with as well. Through my losses I've been able to connect, encourage, and pray for so many people that I would have never otherwise known. I've been able to use my story to reach out and help other moms that are experiencing similar losses and pain. It's not a road I would have ever chosen and I hate that anyone has to experience it but I'm thankful that I've been able to use my pain as a way to help others.
In those lonely painful hours I didn't have words to use to cry to God. But God gave me a heart that loves people and the Spirit interceded and prayed that this hurt and anguish would not go unused in my life but that there would be a purpose to my pain.
In verse 28 of this same chapter it says, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Right there is how this comes together. That painful circumstance that you can't come up with a single word to pray for? God is going to use it for good because you love Him. Cry out with all that is in you, words or not, and let the Spirit pray to God on your behalf. It may take hours, weeks, or years but you will see the good.
Have you experienced the Spirit interceding on your behalf? What is your favorite way to connect with other people? What promise spoke to you this week?